Why I have already stopped working on NServiceBus again

In my previous blog post I announced that I had joined the NServiceBus core team on September 1st, and at the time of writing, I have been working with them part time for two months.

I have already decided to stop working on the NServiceBus core team again though (as of November 1st), and in this blog post I’ll try to explain why.

In the beginning, I was really excited about getting to work with the awesome team that Udi Dahan has assembled to work on NServiceBus, and of course also to get to work with Udi himself, whom I admire and whose work I have followed closely during the last 5 years or so.

I knew that joining the NServiceBus team would mean that I would have to give up working on Rebus at some point, but I thought that that would not be a problem for me.

When work started though, I did have a slightly uneasy feeling, and it was hard for me to get excited about the actual work we were doing. I originally attributed that to the fact that I was working part time and thus had to do a lot of catching up every time I finally had time to work.

But I have come to realize that the reason I was not that motivated was that I was missing Rebus. And I realized that I felt odd because I was being the least enthusiatic person on a team where everyone else radiated pure excitement.

I really really want to be excited about the work that I am doing, and I know that I am usually capable of mustering tremendous excitement whenever I get to focus on some project or task that makes sense to me – but I’m afraid that I would not be able to generate that level of excitement for NServiceBus.

Therefore I thought that it would be most fair to everyone that I would stop working on NServiceBus and leave that space for someone who can be truly passionate about it.

This means that I’m back doing full time Awesome Stuff at d60 again, although my role will probably be twisted slightly away from consulting towards something with Rebus and messaging, some R&D, some Windows Azure, and possibly some other stuff that I will probably get back to in future blog posts 🙂